A year of vacation OR Skype dates.

62 days or so...

deployment

A wife of a deployed husband does not fit anywhere.

I am married but don't belong with couples.

I have a husband so the single life is no longer mine.

I hate this!

People Leave

There are times in our lives where we find oursleves alone. Right now I am alone. Not forever alone just right now. Just today.

I love my husband.

I miss my husband.

He will come back.

Feeling Sad

Feeling sad. I do not remeber ever feeling this sad.

I am sure that I have.

Just keep breathing...

right?

I am just plain sad.

deployed

I feel like I am being ripped in half.

A year ago I was strong.

Not feeling strong.

Stuck on the couch!

Frustrated

God does not want us to live as though we are defeated!

I would like to argue that God does not want us to live defeated lives. We are not good enough, we never can be. On this earth we live in our human bodies with our human failings.

BUT

God is everything. He chooses to use us now today in our failings. Even though we have trouble surrendering. Even though we fail. We fail to love. We fail to love God, we fail to love people.

BUT

God is everything. I boast about my weakness because in my weakness Gods grace is made perfect. So if God can love me as I am, then I am forced to love myself as I am.

My call is to love. Love God, love people.

the times they are a changing

Uncertainly certain that my life is changing.

It is a good thing.

Although I was actually getting good at this life. It took years. It took figuring out to be a good friend. To move on and find peers. To talk with people to connect to hurt from time to time. To love deeply, to stop waiting.

I think I can be good at this too. Together, all of those lessons I learned, now seen from a new perspective (together).

I have written about being alone for years and years. The new challenge is together.

I am uncertainly certain that my life will never be the same.